I am coming home to YOU

"Come home running.. His arms are open wide.. His name is Jesus.. He understands"


I will have to admit that i sort of wandered away from Him.
yes, i serve Him... i attend The Feast but the personal relationship? it went off.
sabi nga ng friend ko, "spiritually dry"...
it was just all about service., but the personal relationship kind of stopped. iba pa rin pala talaga pag alam mong ung personal relationship mo with the Lord ay andun pa din at mas nagddeepen.

i used to pray a lot, talk to Him a lot, tell Him everything.. during those times, i was at my very best.. i love who i was... i was very patient, understanding, loving, happy...people noticed how much i've changed... but i wandered away from Him.. i started hating people, i think a lot about bad things.. i say bad things,, i wasn't so Christ-like.. naging masyado kong topakin,demanding, maarte, selfish, impatient.sinful..
it felt like i was carrying a very heavy load.. my heart became stiff...
i am still loving but i feel like it's not my all.. i could still give more when i have God within me.
i realized that i was indeed spiritually dry, i forgot to talk to Him.. i forgot Him and me,, i forgot "us"
kaya siguro minsan talagang namo-move ako pag ung talk and worship ay about coming back to Him.. kasi tinatawag nya ko...
namimiss nya na ko...namimiss nya na ung madz na lagi syang kinakausap.. lagi syang kinukulit.. lagi syang kinekwentuhan about the day, about people..about life, love life :(

but Your love for me never changed.. You're just waiting for me to come home to You. sorry if it took me long enough to realize that i went away.. and now that i am back, i hope people will see YOU more through me :) Again, just like before :)
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i'm sorry Lord if i wandered away from You :'(
and now that i am running back to you, thank you for still accepting me and loving me with arms wide open..
namiss kita Lord.. sorry kung lumayo ako sayo... alam ko po nagseserve ako pero nakalimutan kitang kausapin.. nakalimutan ko "tayo"... ayan tuloy Lord, inaadmit ako.. naging hindi kagandahan ung mga inasal ko lately.. may mga tao akong nasaktan at patuloy pang nasasaktan kasi di ako naging tulad mo...
sorry for the times na tinatawag mo na ko pero lumalayo pa din ako...lalapit man ako, saglit lang.. pero after awhile, wala na ko ulit.. sorry Lord .. pero you still continue to welcome me and i cant thank You enough for that... and now here i am, bumabalik sayo.. nawala man ako but i am happy to be back Home with YOU! :)
i feel so happy and blessed that i have a very loving God who always accepts me despite my unworthiness.

for the people that i have hurt for how i've been acting lately.. i am sorry...
forgive me,i'll try to be better this time.. accept me again :')

and to the man who made me realize things, thank you Ryan :) I owe you! :)
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