Life

August 27,  2010


- a date that i will never forget :) 
my day started just like any other days, but a bit more excited coz it's friday. meaning it's FEAST manila day :)
it was almost lunch time, i accompanied my brother to the hospital for a check-up.. while talking to doc dennis, i looked at my phone and saw someone calling. "private no." ... so i immediately answered it.
"hello madz. nurse ka na" 
it was hanah!!! :D the first one who told me that i passed!
di pa din ako makapaniwala nun. tinext ko pa siya na wag syang nagjojoke. i said bad words to her. haha :p
ganun kami maglambingan :)) kasi, ang unusual naman na irelease sa ganung oras.. HAHAHA
 tinext ko boyfriend ko to check, sa kanya ko kelangan marining na pasado na ko :) HAHA 
gusto ko madami magsabi kasi wala ko sa bahay, baka pinagttripan lang ako. haha
then ryan called, 
ryan: "bie!! (said the numbers..)"
me:ano yan?! pasado ba ko????!!!!
ryan: ung number mo.
me: e ano nga?! pasado?!
ryan: nurse ka na!!! 
me: wah!!!!! oh my god!!!!! **screaming kahit nasa ospial ako!!! :))) 


pag naalala ko yan ngayon, naeexcite pa din ako. 
andun pa din ung thrill :)
sobrang SARAP NG FEELING <3 


ngayon, 3rd day, pero i still have the same feeling. i cant contain the happiness that i have kahit na masakit ulo ko kahapon pa. i am soo happy. the hard work paid off! 
all the prayers were answered!
:)))))))
sarap lang nung friday.. saya ng feeling!!
tapos aug. 27 pa yun, august 28 monthsary pa namin ni ryan.
CAN LIFE GET ANY BETTER?!?!?! :))
  ang saya lang e :))


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Lord,
thank you so much for listening to the desires of my heart.
dati pa man, student pa lang ako sinasabi ko na po na hindi ako makakaabot ng 2nd, 3rd yr at 4th ng dahil lang sa wala.
pinanghihinaan ng loob sa sobrang hirap, pero sabi ko may dahilan kung bakit andito pa din ako.
kaya aral pa din, sige lang. duty pa din. 
eversince naman po, inooffer ko sayo ung mga ginagawa ko. 
i offered myself since them to make me your instrument of love.
at hindi niyo po ako pinabayaan.
ngayon po Lord, nurse na ko :)
thank you po for letting me pass. 
alam ko po ginusto niyo to para po mas makatulong ako.
i wont fail you Lord. 
i'll continue serving YOU AND YOU PEOPLE 
ibabalik ko po sa inyo ng sobra sobrang etong pagpasa ko!
nagpray agad ako, kumanta agad ng worship song pagkapasa ko! 
LORD, MY LICENSE IS FOR YOU!
pinagppray ko po lahat ng tao na nagpray for me. 
bless them more LORD. 


AMEN

Twitter Damn its true

im trying to keep myself busy while waiting for my bie to finish his work and 'til he's home. :))

i keep myself busy by browsing twitter's damn its true :)

i'll post some and have my reaction :)

1. Having a song that never gets old, no matter how many times you listen to it

*** im a music lover. i enjoy listening to any genre of song :) i sing and there are certain old songs that i really love singing. :) there's something about old songs that i cant explain. ang sarap kantahin. :) lalo na yung love songs :) old songs are more meaningful <3

2. You always need a blanket, no matter what the temperature is

*** TRUE!!! sometimes i just put my blanket on top of my tummy. :P

3. Men always want to be a woman's first love; women like to be a man's last romance

*** this line just reminds me of my baby.. di pa man kami, he keeps on telling me that... that i'll be his last... it feels great hearing that from a man :) lalo na ako, i used to be a man-hater... i pray to God that he'll be able to keep his words.. im willing to spend the rest of my life with him... tamad ako, i dont want to look for somebody else..at may ugali akong ganun.. ayoko yung feeling ng magkakaron ng pangalawang boyfriend.. gusto ko pag nag boyfriend ako, siya na.. at siya lang... and my boyfriend's a great guy.. i know na kaya nya kaming buhayin ng magiging pamilya nya :) he's a guy full of dreams, at di lang nangangarap,,, he makes sure that he'll achieve his dreams! i BELIEVE he won't have a third party.. he knows my past, and he knows how it feels na nanloloko based na din sa past nya... SOBRANG SWAK LANG TALAGA KAMI E :) ang dami pang nagsasabing we look good together.. dati pa lang, kahit nung di pa kami, lots of people would tell me that until now.. and i admit, i still get kilig when people tell me that :)) love you bie! 

4. Every girl wishes a boy would dedicate the song "Just The Way You Are" by Bruno Mars to them

*** true! the song could melt a girl's heart :) <3

5. It's not who you fall asleep thinking about, but who you dream about

*** i had a wonderful dream... i seriously didnt want to wake up... but my dysmenorrhea is killing me.. i dreamt about my bie :) we were in tagaytay and he was being his usual makulit, malambing self.. i dont know why we're in tagaytay and why he gave me flowers.. but seriously,, it was sweet. i really didnt want to wake up..  ang sarap matulog pag ganun ang panaginip mo.. pag kasama ko siya sa panaginip ko.. kahit dun man lang sa panaginip ko magkasama kami.. nagigising ako but i go to bed again.. and sleep :) and wish i'd have the same dream.. and yes, continuation ang nangyayari.. kung ganun every night panaginip ko. pwede ba matulog ng sobrang haba? :)) ang sarap e, kasama ko lang siya :)

6. If you feel like you have every lost hope, just know that there is someone up there who loves you

*** AMEN! i must say :) GOD IS SIMPLY AMAZING! HE WILL NEVER LEAVE US NOR FORSAKE US. 

when we feel like give up.. just stop, kneel and pray... P.U.S.H...(pray until something happens) :))

God listens to the cries of our hearts :) He knows our feelings even if we dont say it to Him, He knows the desires of our hearts :)

7. The girl with the unbreakable smile is the most vulnerable

*** uh-oh! GUILTY!  :)))

8. I wanna be the reason for the smile on your face and that one girl in your life that can not be replaced

*** i wanna be the girl you'll be afraid to lose not because i'll be doing something bad but because you see life better when we're together... i want to be that girl to you baby... :) i just want to make you happy everyday.. i want to be best girl for you.. i know im not perfect, but i'll try my best just to be the right girl for you.. kahit sana topakin ako, moody, mukang walang interests di ka magsawang mahalin ako.. :) kasi mahal kita.. at kapag di tayo okay, lutang talaga ko.. sobrang wala ako sa mood.. if afraid you'll leave.. im afraid you'll get tired of me... kung alam mo lang.. :)

Falling for you

"I don’t know but I think I maybe Fallin’ for you
Dropping so quickly ,Maybe I should Keep this to myself
Waiting ’til I Know you better" -- Falling for you by Colbie Caillat

that song is very special in my life.

i can still vividly remember singing that song months before and getting so hyper and ecstatic.

i was literally singing and dancing and smiling :)

i was very much inspired and happy to sing that song because that song reminds me of one person.

im a singer. i express my feelings thru songsssss :)

in all honesty, falling in love and being in a relationship? 

i thought that wouldn't happen to me. i was seriously considering being a nun. 

yes, you heard me right. being a nun :)

i actually thought that's my calling or could be single blessedness. 

but then poof! 

"i dont know you, i just met you boy. something's got me and i dont know why. what if we were meant to be. what if it was destiny"- What if by Jordyn Taylor 

yea, i dont know why.. it just happened :)

im inlove :) inlab, inlababu,inspired, happy.. whatever you want to associate it with, :)

inlove to my first boyfriend, my one and only boyfriend, Ryan :) 

DI KO IKINAKAHIYA! :)

my friends are teasing me. blooming. happy. always smiling.

always holding my phone. always talking to someone.

singing.

cheesy na kung cheesy. but i  dont care. :)

di ko ikinakahiyang mahal ko siya :)

i can still remember nung review days namin sa cavite, my roomie was playing a song.. 

eto 

"im looking for a lover, not a friend. somebody who can be there when i need someone to talk to.. is it you.. is it you.. maybe you're the one i've been waiting for. could you be the one for me? could you be the one i need?"  - Is it you by cassie

tapos inasar na nila ko kasi song ko na daw yun. and ayun! i kept singing that song since then. 

and it can still make me smile til now :) HAHA

at confident siyang sumagot ng "yes!" HAHA 

sa sobrang pagka miss ko sa kanya, im writing about him :)) HAHA

im crazy.. :P

i know i am :) 

i just want to write about him:)

im not ashamed to say that he's mine, i am his. 

so back off :P

kaninang hapon, iuupload ko na ung pics from my cam.. while i was looking at the pictures, may nakita kong di ko naman ata kinunan ng pic! haha.

it was him :) HAHA. nung nagpunta kong cr nung nasa SM kami kahapon, pinicturan nya sarili nya. HAHA. kanina ko lang nakita.. then i texted him. buti daw nakita ko na! :) HAHA 

THEN he asked me kung nakita ko na ung to-do notebook ko, sabi ko di pa.. 

pagtingin ko, eto nakalagay 

ang tagal na nyan. ngayon ko lang nakita, kung hindi pa siya nagtanong. HAHA 

he's making me love him more and more each day. :) 

and i dont love you just because you're a singer!

okay? :D

i love you kasi ikaw yan :)

i love you kahit topakin ka, topakin din naman ako :D

i can sing a song to you everyday and every night :)

i can hug you all day! ikaw ang susuko! haha :D

i can look at you all day, ikaw din susuko! HAHA :D 

di ako makapagsulat ng maayos dahil nakikita ko pic mo at nakangiti na lang ako! :D

BIE :)

i love you!!!!!!!!

i miss you!!!!!!!!!!** kung pwede lang kita makita everyday..**

sabi ko nga, i dont want the day to end when we're together..

God Bless You!!!!!!!!!!!!

may all your dreams come true! **parang si Bo lang :)))**

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Lord,

thank you po kasi you introduced him to me.

i'd like to believe it was not an accident.

buti na lang po ginawa niyo kong makulit :)

i'll never get tired of thanking you everyday because you gave someone like him to love me and for me to love.

please guide him always, keep him safe.

grant him good health para po magawa nya po lahat ng gusto nya pang gawin. 

Lord, alam mo naman po ung lagi kong pinepray. 

sana maging successful siya dito sa bagay na pinagtutuunan nya ng oras, panahon at pagod. 

i'd like to believe he's the one. 

well i  hope siya na.. Lord, pwede mangulit ulit? :)

siya na lang po.  :))

i'll make him the one :) hihi

Love you LORD! :D alam ko pong nakikinig kayo sa pangungulit ako :) 

kung kelangan ko pang pong mas mangulit ng sobra, gagawin ko :) just please, make him the one :) alam niyo naman po ako, when i love someone today.. i'll love the person forever! :)

My life became wonderful with their presence

God gave you a gift of 86,400 seconds today.  Have you used one to say "thank you?"  ~William A. Ward

 I was reading my old notebook, when i say old notebook ko pa yun nung highschool. and i saw that quote.. and i thought of writing about people who are very dear to me right now. 

there are people who never fail to put a smile on my face. there are people who i love talking to til the weee hours of the night. there are people who can definitely turn my sadness into joy :)

it's not soo long ago since i started attending feast and i can definitely say that it was all worth it. sobrang daming nangyari, dumating na blessings nung nagsimula akong umattend ng worship na ito. and di ko na alam paano ko pa pasasalamatan si Lord for spoiling me too much :) 

broken relationships healed.a father came. friends with Christ came. Graduated. passed the board exam**haha.im claiming it already!!**

there are certain people that i can say definitely would remind me of 2010

***daddy O!!.. i really thank God kasi He gave me an earthly father already. God knows how much im longing for a father because i never had the chance to grow up with my biological father. and God gave me a very amazing spiritual dad!! thank you dad! :) you're amazing! you're such a blessing to me :) i will love you forever my holidaysuperdad!

**FEASTmates! joy, mafe, erika, loba, jay, steph, lovelove,ahrone, wina, anna,eunice... ang solid feast goers :) sobrang blessing sila sa buhay ko kasi nakahanap ako ng kapatid sa kanila :) people who are willing to give me a hug ng hindi magtataka kung bakit. people who are willing to give their time just to listen to what i have to say. people who gets kilig even when im not telling stories about me and a guy. they just feel stuffs. haha :D people who knows when im not okay and just pray with me :) i love being with them, i feel so blessed that i have found new friends who are all addicted to the LORD! <3 

**Ryan :) i never really imagined he will be someone really special in my life right now.. he's a servant, a great singer. well i was secretly admiring him for that. and because i have a super kulit and cool dad, he introduced me to ryan :) May282010, remember that date. it was the day i met him. i wasnt really expecting that we would be really close, but we became more than just friends. he just came perfectly at the right time. i wasnt really looking, but he came :) and im happier :) im praying to God that he'll be my last , my first and last. <3 i dont want to look for another na. tamad ako. and when i love, i give my all :) sa kanya na lahat!  bie, you're the love of my life.. my first, last and only guy :) i love you!

**arlene! my spiritual sister. nameet ko siya because dad asked me to meet her :) haha. she's a frosh student from UP manila. bigatin! at di lang yun. pretty pa :)

blessing siya sakin kasi ne-feel ko nanaman na may nangangailangan ng presence ko :) ung pagiging malambing, makulit nya ay nagpapasaya sakin :) swear :) masarap maging ate sa taong alam mo, at nafifeel mong naappreciate ka :)

**ate Faith! another spiritual sister :) i just met her actually but i feel so blessed that i have her as my ate :) sobrang loving nya, and first meeting pa lang namin sobrang comfy na ko with her. :) ang sweet pa nya!! bigla na lang magtetext at sasabihing "kulet, remember that ate loves you" amazing! magkakaron na ko ng lawyer na ate! woo! claim na claim na tayo!

**keren.. kelan lang din kami naging close nito ni keren pero sobrang nakapalagayan ko na siya ng loob. talking  to her about anything and everything :) even the sensitive issues :) haha! (you still owe me a lot of stories!) walang hesitations to talk to her  and share stories with her :) love ko tong babae na to!

**NiKi! <3 eto mas amazing. ask me kung kelan ko lang siya naging kaclose.. when? just today! at kung magusap kami parang ang tagal na namin magkakilala. parang sobrang close na namin. ang swak na personalities namin. makulit, maligalig.singer pareho. pretty. haha talagang ganun. parang i found a new sister in her :) naaamaze talaga ko kung gaano kabilis kami nag-click and i thank God kasi binigyan nya ko ng bagong kapatid at kaibigan at yun ay si NIKI!! :) ichecherish ko ang sisterhood na ito <3-- symbol natin. haha funny! :D

those people are all from the feast manila :) 

lahat sila ay nagiging dahilan kung bakit binabalik balikan ko ang feast manila, aside sa main reason na magpakaadik kay LORD!

they make me look forward to fridays! 

they are God's amazing blessings that i will forever cherish in my life :) 

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Lord,

I am ardently praying for the following people that i have just mentioned.

bless them more Lord so that they can bless other people more

Lead them Lord to where to want them to be.

keep them safe Lord, i care about them soo much

Lord make them successful in everything that they do.

make them rich. rich of love and wealth.

You know the desires of their hearts Lord. 

Lord thank you for them because my life became wonderful with their presence :)

i love them so much with all my heart :)

ANGEL ISDA :)

DOMINION: This angel provides nourishment for physical and spiritual fulfillment.
GUIDANCE: Angel of Nourishment
SAMPLE AFFIRMATION: I only put things in my body that nourish my physical and spiritual body.
SAMPLE PRAYER: Angel of Nourishment, I have been having a tough time monitoring my intake of thoughts, information, food and emotions. And sometimes I fill my body with these things that are not in my best interest. Please help me to be more aware so that I can self-monitor my actions in a more active and conscious way. I know that I should only be putting things into my brain, heart or body that are a reflection of Good things. I look to you for support, guidance and influence.
Through Jesus Christ's Precious, Pure and Holy name I pray. - Amen

NEVER GIVE UP

sa mundong ito, bawal ang naggive up at nagpapatalo. 

kung nagpapatalo ka na lang palagi, well good luck. 

tignan na lang natin kung saan ka pupulutin!

oo minsan nagkakamali ka, nadadapa. pero ganun talaga!

ganun ang buhay.

TRIALS ARE THERE TO MAKE US WINNERS!

wag kang habambuhay na lang nakadapa kasi natalo ka at napagtawanan ka at napahiya ka.

take that as a challenge. 

o sige, umiyak ka. pero dapat sa umpisa lang yun.

pagkatapos mo magdrama, action naman!

bumawi ka ng bonggang bongga!

labanan ang kahinaan! 

gumanti kung maaari, ganti sa sarili mo. dahil alam mong kaya mo! at hindi ka dapat pinagtatawanan!

sa laban naman kasi ng buhay, sarili mo lang talaga ang sagabal sa mga plano mo at pangarap mo eh.

kung palagi ka na lang nahihiya. kung palagi ka na lang si "next time na lang", good luck naman sayo!

nasasanay kasi tayo minsan sa comfort zone natin.

 try lang natin minsan tumapak sa courage zone.. mas masaya! mas fulfilling! PROMISE!

dati mahiyain ako sobra.. walang tiwala sa sarili. 

pero nasampal ako, ng isang taong di ko talaga makalimutan.

nagawa niya kong ipahiya sa harap ng mga kaklase ko noon.

sobrang iyak ko noon, parang ang sarap tumakbo at iwan ang mundo. 

pero narealize ko. "teka, grabe naman siya. gaganti ako. i'll prove her wrong!"

at ayun, sa bandang huli. pinuri nya din ako.

ganun talaga buhay e :)

sarili lang ang kalaban!

kaya wag magpapatalo sa sarili!

para saan pa't binigay satin ni Lord ang lahat kung magpapatalo ka lang :)

He wants us to go reach our dreams! :)

and besides, He wont leave us! 

God is within us and around us! :)

just go claim your victory!

it is 1% your work and 99% God's work :)

All for YOUR GREATER GLORY!!

"And so I say to you, you are Peter and upon this rock I will build my church, and all the gates of the netherworld shall not prevail against it"- Matthew 16:18

REFLECTION: 
"In God's great economy, nothing goes to waste...don't be afraid of your flaws.
Acknowledge them and allow God to take advantage of them, and you too can be the cause of beauty in his pathway. Go boldly, knowing that in our weakness we find strength.."--anonymous


 i admit i'm quite nervous being the operations head.
but im accepting it with my whole heart, im accepting the challenge.
and im doing this for the LORD!
i know that im not good enough, but i know God will not let anything bad happen to me.
He will help me to become fully equipped to serve Him :)

PLUS, i have a great support system!
**Daddy O's soo proud of me and he believes in me soo much.
i have the heart for this and i dreamt of becoming one.
it's finally coming true. i can see it! Dad wont leave me, he'll guide me. that's what he said.
**my paulinian friends and feastmates are with me on this.. WE ARE SERVING THE LORD TOGETHER AND FOREVER! <3  we can do this!! i can see it coming.. and im glad we're together :)

and you, start living.
Be one of us :)

HOW CAN I KEEP FROM SINGING YOUR PRAISE
HOW CAN I EVER SING ENOUGH HOW AMAZING IS YOUR LOVE


I KNOW I AM LOVED BY THE KING :)
I WILL LIFT MY EYES IN THE DARKEST NIGHTS
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Lord,
this is something new to us, new to me
and i ask your guidance and blessing to please help us with this.
we are very much willing to be of service to You Lord,
there's no greater thing than serving You oh Lord. 
We are lifting all our works and efforts to You Lord
We are offering the success of this mission for you greater glory! 
We are already claiming the success of this mission, 
Be with US LORD! :)
AMEN!!

i am slowly putting myself away from you

because i can feel that i cant be with you...

but LORD, im giving this a try...
learning experience.. now i've accepted it..

i wont be with you forever...

i'll be watching you!

just got back from a meeting with ate cookie fontanilla about the feast st.paul :)
was assigned as the Operations Head.
it was really unexpected!! woo!
our meeting is sooo full of love, it's as if we were having our CG(caring group)


and i am so excited! i just cant hide it :)
there are lots of wonderful things that i can see coming :)
i am nervous that i might not be able to do part job but i am very much willing to be trained as a servant!
FINALLY MY DREAM TO BECOME A MISSIONARY/SERVANT IS COMING TRUE! <3
how great can that be?

im so fired up right now!
there are lots of things that i want to do
why is serving the Lord sooo exciting?????
im glad im going to be a part of St.Paul Feast and be a blessing to a lot of people.
i hope there would lots of people who are willing to help us :)

LORD, 
please bless this project
bless the people working for this to happen
bless your servants Lord so that they could bless other people more :)
Lord, this is for you. 
We want to bring people closer to you!! 


right after the meeting ended, we were serenaded by the LORD through this song
Every breath you take and every move you make 
Every bond you break 
Every step you take, I'll be watching you 
Every single day and every word you say 
Every game you play 
Every night you stay, I'll be watching you 
Oh can't you see you belong to me? 
How my poor heart aches with every step you take 
Every move you make and every vow you break 
Every smile you fake 
Every claim you stake, I'll be watching you 
Since you've gone I've been lost without a trace 
I dream at night 
I can only see your face 
I look around but it's you I can't replace 
I feel so cold and I long for your embrace 
I keep crying baby, baby please